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Not my thing

Last night I went with Rebecca to the PRISM dance in Kirksville. I went fully expecting to have a good time and dance with my friends.

Well, I danced. Some.

I am just going to make it official. Clubbing is not my thing. I find no appeal in spending hours in a room lit only by strobe lights, bombarded by bass from songs I have never heard before, surrounded by drunken people of varying sexualities who seem to have forgotten the concept of personal space. I spent the entire time wanting to leave or just sit down. But again, these people were drunk and had no inhibitions to sit next to me and try to start a conversation. I usually am not intentionally standoffish, but last night I made an exception.

I could tell that Rebecca was unhappy with me, and I tried to have a good time. But I honestly do not understand the enjoyment people get from this. I mean, seriously, two guys were practically fucking on the dance floor. I tend to shy away from situations where that is socially acceptable. I like dancing and I like spending time with my friends, but when they all want to go onto the dance floor when there is a vast amount of space around it, then the fun starts decreasing. If you have been to one of Jen’s dance parties, you know full well that I spend the majority of the time dancing. But when you add strangers in close quarters, and combine that with the bass and sporadic lighting, I start stressing out and my introversion screams at me to get out as fast as possible.

I think one of the problems is that I really do not dance to songs I do not know or like. Mainly because if I do not know it, I am not sure of when the bass starts, when the chorus ends, those kinds of things. And if I do not like it, then of course I am not going to dance to it. If there was a club that played artists that I actually listened to, then I would be all over that. However, regardless of their dance potential, the artists I listen to are not found on Z107.7 and therefore are not found in clubs.

So next semester I may give it another go, or I may just stay at home and watch a movie instead. I love my friends and I love spending time with them, but at the end of the day I have to look after myself first. If that means offending or disappointing them, then oh well.

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Previously on “Life” …

So, finals week is upon us here in Kirksville, and I get the feeling that I should be much more stressed out. I mean, I only have two comprehensive finals, but I see everyone cramming like crazy, and I feel like I should be doing the same. However, I can say without a shadow of a doubt that finals week is my favourite week of the year. Not only do I not have any classes, but it seems that there is always something to do; even if it is just watching Saw with Missi’s house. That being said, I have probably eaten more junk food in the last four days than in the last four months. And tonight is Reading Day Eve. This should be interesting.

In other news, this past Friday I met the only other furry in Kirksville, a senior at TSU, and it was freaking awesome. Not only can I say that I have met a friend from the internet IRL, but I now have a friend in the fandom, which is nice. And according to him, I didn’t come off as a complete freak, which is good.

That is actually something I am really self-conscious about. Don’t get me wrong, I love myself the way I am and do not plan on changing, but I realise that I am really weird. So I always worry that when I meet people for the first time that they won’t like me because I freak them out. And then it all kind of snowballs from there and I end up freaking out for nothing. Not to mention that while I love meeting new people and making new friends, I am terrified of the initial conversation. Maybe this has something to do with me being an introvert, maybe not.

Well, I’ve taken up enough of your time. I will try to post stuff more regularly in the future.

-Ryujin

Days until Winter Break: 3

Days until Christmas: 10

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